Coming to Terms with Myself...

Hey guys. Long time, no type on this blog.... I'm sorry. 

I could tell you I was busy which I was. I'm a sophomore in college and currently I'm in the middle of finals right now.

However, lately I've realized that people make time for the things that are really important to them.

I've also realized that I haven't been making time for God.

I then asked myself the question, "Is God important to me, to my life?"

I then hated myself for having to ask myself that question.

I do love my God. I promise I do. But I haven't made a lot of time for Him.

I asked myself why. Why do I not have time for Him?  A better question to ask myself is: "Why do I think I don't have time for Him? Why have I been doing that takes up so much of my time?"

The Answers: 

I've been stressed and overwhelmed with college. (He can relieve stress and take away my worries.) 

I've been so tired lately. (Yet, He's the one who wakes me up every morning...) 

I feel like He's let me down. (He really hasn't. He just has a different plan for me.) 

The people I have been surrounded by lately aren't really the best Christian influences. (I... I honestly don't know what to say about this, so I'm going to let myself think about this one for a bit...)

I have been denying the fact that I have been drifting away from God lately.

However, you can't solve a problem that you don't accept.

This is me accepting it.

This is me racking my brain trying to think of ways to build my relationship with Him back.

Do I exactly know what I'm going to do right now? No, but I know I've going to try. I'm going to actually read my day and night devotions. I'm actually going to pray more like I used to.

That's all that I know of that I'm going to do right now.

But I also know that I'm going to build my faith back one day at a time. 

With His help.